Despite the Gentleness challenge I wrote about only a few short weeks ago, I confess that I’ve gotten back into the ugly habit of raising my voice at the kids.
I know in my head that raising my voice doesn’t help. It just builds a wall between my kids and I. As soon as the kids hear my voice start to get louder, they turn off. I end up feeling awful, the kids feel miserable, and the whole atmosphere of the house is just yucky.
So why do I keep doing this over and over?
For what I am doing, I do not understand. For what I will to do, that I do not practice; but what I hate, that I do. If, then, I do what I will not to do, I agree with the law that it is good. But now, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) nothing good dwells; for to will is present with me, but how to perform what is good I do not find. For the good that I will to do, I do not do; but the evil I will not to do, that I practice. Now if I do what I will not to do, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me.
Romans 7:15-20 (NKJV)
Well, at least I’m not alone in this struggle!
I need to overcome this sin. It doesn’t affect only me, but my whole family.
The other day my husband saw me start to get frustrated with the kids and my voice was starting to sound a bit ugly. He asked me, “Who are you talking to?”
“Who are you talking to? When you talk to the kids, ask yourself if you’d talk to Jesus in that same way. Imagine you are talking to Jesus.”
Yikes. How could I ever talk to Jesus in the ugly tone I often find myself using with the kids? But that’s exactly what I’m doing!
“Then the righteous will answer Him, saying, ‘Lord, when did we see You hungry and feed You, or thirsty and give You drink? When did we see You a stranger and take You in, or naked and clotheYou? Or when did we see You sick, or in prison, and come to You?’ And the King will answer and say to them, ‘Assuredly, I say to you, inasmuch as you did it to one of the least of these My brethren, you did it to Me.’
Matthew 25:37-40 (NKJV)
What we do to and for others, we do for Jesus as well. The good and the bad.
Hopefully this will remind me to watch my voice when I’m talking to the kids!